Original Hurt

There is a way to get to the crux—through the maze of our original hurt.

A way to see how we are each responsible in different ways for what we allow, what we believe, what we subscribe to, what we keep returning to and what we co-create.

A way to ultimately see how we as adult humans—endowed by nature with the innately conscious means of organic intelligence—may choose to wield and re-align the formidable powers of thought, word and deed.

And if those original hurts were inflicted when we as children were betrayed by the ignorant and degenerate—then we as adults today can choose to experience how our relationship to the abusers of our tender trust can and does transform—through the fearless compassion naturally cultivated by acknowledging the cause of our shared pain and the understandable fear of it.

I experience this journey into the root cause of suffering as just that, a journey. A process. It is a process to self-responsibly question and investigate first as an act of self-respect and—when urged from within—to embark on it in all sincerity and commit to it as a consenting adult.

Watching ourselves from an overview matured through observant participation, we will see how at any point we might reactively, hurtfully abort and even blame the process we were present to participate in. In lashing out as a survival instinct we might blame the guide we ourselves believed in and retaliate against those fellow participants for not believing in our disbelief. We know conceptually that the pain, while fresh, is also concurrently symptomatic of a deeper condition which—when consciously investigated as sensation—might allow us to experientially identify the original cause and ripple effects of fearful un-ease. Practicing through penetrating self-reflection, we can actualize the ability to arrive at ground zero or inception point—consciously spearheading the psychosomatic triggers and guards that work to block the re-entry of our own higher faculties of unbiased, remedial intelligence.

Consciously perceiving and giving voice to the unraveling of emotional hurt for long enough to pass through the reactive lashing out and scapegoating, allows us an opportunity to identify and process our patterned response to the triggers of residual trauma secreted in our sensitized body tissues.

Knowing it's a process and knowing that we possess natural survival instincts to evade, obscure, repel and postpone the inevitable as we go into the pulsing heart of buried experiences to reclaim their striking validity—we can give ourselves and each other the space and tools to choose health even as we challenge our own perceived, programmed limitations.

I am here for this, not because I am better at it, or because it is the only way, but because I have been called to this way of being by nature, by birth. This is my service as informed and supported by Tantra, Ayurveda and Yoga, as a time-tested way of choosing integrated, sustainable wellbeing in every sense I can experience. And I am here because I cherish the journey shared.