"Since I have returned to New York...compared to my previous life...
I am relating more honestly to my wife than I ever have before; I received the blessing of a powerful marriage ceremony that moved and inspired those in attendance; my wife has found a direction and purpose in which she is coming alive; I live in a beautiful new apartment in a better neighborhood with a vastly healthier lifestyle; I have gone from one to five people working for me; I am earning deeper respect from my colleagues and boss; I am developing a reputation of high capacity and insight among the companies I meet; and I am well on my way to making as much money this year as I have saved in the rest of my life. In my awareness most of the credit goes to you [Umaa]."
- Stephan, USA
"For me, that day was an anniversary, and I made the trip especially to do (Umaa's) class,
as I had a sense that it was going to be just what I needed. 4 years prior, I had a bone marrow transplant with my brothers stem cells which was the cure treatment for an aggressive form of acute leukaemia. Initially at diagnosis with few symptoms (tired and strange bruising) I was given 10 days to live with out treatment...And I was right, that class was just what I needed. The exploration was through the layers from skin to muscle to blood to bone to bone marrow! You went right for it, taking me right into the very thing that I was celebrating. Into the depths of life itself. And somehow I really had the experience of becoming my blood and bones and marrow. It felt like an incredible deep and powerful healing experience for me. I felt so connected – to my self and my journey and all of the choices I had made to get me to that point in that class in that moment – to you – to earth – to the universe and the galaxies.
I also felt waves of ecstatic bliss and cried and cried and cried and blissed out again. And then laughed and laughed at the total absurdity of it all!!!
At the end of that class, while lying down in savasana, I felt myself as a wave of energy for quite some time. It is a very difficult thing to describe, even though I was completely conscious and fully present to it. Just like energy or electricity in waves. Not solid. When I talk about it I say I know what wave/particle theory is now from a direct experience! I have done a lot of satsang over the years, and have felt the boundlessness type of connection to all, with explosions of moments of feeling connected to….God I guess….for want of better languaging. But this was a different experience.
When I found the edges of my body and realised my physical/particle form, I opened my eyes and everyone was gone!"
- Charmaine, Australia
"I was an agnostic, cosmopolitan-laden, anti-Nature, skeptic before meeting U a year and a half ago. I held on tight to that which I could experience first-hand, or explain in some rational way, and called that Reality and Truth and Fact. I disregarded most anything else as fluffy, sci-fi, fantastical mumbo jumbo. I was ignorant and arrogant. Dangerous mix.
I was very limited in the ways that I perceived reality. I had blinders, ear muffs, full body suit layer, taste blockers and cotton up my nose, and I didn’t even know it. That was until I saw, heard, tasted, smelled and felt unexplainable states of being that shattered my hardened, historic reasonings and logic. As I purified and relaxed into the maybes and the in-betweens, I began perceiving reality in entirely new ways.
Umaa’s blown me open to the reality of just how magnificent and extraordinary our potential for living and experiencing can be. From the tiniest, quietest, most banal to the hugest, wildest and outrageous, and every stitch in between. The fireworks above ground all the way to the lightning under water spectrum of life.
I have less and less definitives, indisputables and hard lines as everything has been shaken up and knocked upside down for me. It’s almost pointless, as I’m consistently realizing that what I thought was, isn’t. I am humbled and in awe of it all when I remember. It’s difficult to sustain. It’s so easy to get pulled back into thinking I know this or that as my reality and truths. As you can see, any falsities get shredded pretty fast around here under the glaring and glorious light of U. That's the blessing,
if you choose it."
- Eugenia, USA
"Once again during puja I began feeling immense waves of shakti moving up my spine and noticing the sound of my voice changing as we chanted. Then as we prostrated I was pulled into Uma’s sound current and then felt as though I couldn’t stay on the ground as the sounds of growling began moving me from the inside out. The growls sounded primal and the feeling was fierce…something I couldn’t quite recognize until I found myself standing in a wide stance, punching and jabbing the air. It was anger. Rage. I was feeling anger and rage with no story whatsoever. My body expressed itself with such force and strength and the sounds were LOUD. Uma stomped her foot and intensified her sound current, which intensified my feelings, movements and sounds until I finally collapsed onto the ground…wrung out, freed up, lighter, more expansive….and I threw myself at her feet knowing that for the first time in my entire life I had actually felt and expressed anger and rage – and that for the first time in my life I was free of the band of constriction at my solar plexus.
- Devika, USA
"So many so-called "spiritual teachers"—and I have seen a few, including myself in the past—feed on others by "helping," "supporting," "healing," "fixing" them. But in truth,
it is a lie!!! Underneath the lie is a message: "You are worthless shit, so stupid, non-intelligent human, who needs to be controlled and programmed to be a slave for me! I am superior and you are inferior. I have the power by telling you what to do, so you can worship me, and make me the special one, who loves you. That way you do not need to be responsible, I will be responsible for you. So you will never need to think for yourself how to be free from the matrix."
Umaa is completely and radically opposite to this matrix!!!!
By not "taking" responsibility for me She is the most Responsible of all beings. She reflects truth to me, that I have all power of God to co-create with God as God.
And who can give this power back? ONLY GOD
And who can except responsibility for all? ONLY GOD
Thank You Umaa, I am choosing my freedom! I take responsibility for all!
God does not want to sit at the dinner table with slaves!! Why? It is no fun!
God wants to sit at the diner table with God. God multiply ITSELF.
Only God can choose One Self to show up as God.
That is the love of God.
I have no more doubts that Umaa IS Absolute Being, in English called God.
Now I am hungry and want to know all of who She is.
All of 1000 faces of true nature.
I feel totally selfish. She is here for me, reflecting to me all of who I am .
Ultimately She is me.
And I surrender in to the proses of unlearning, undoing, dying, unknowing.
- Grace, Russia
"In my first class with Uma this echo arose from inside of me: "everything is a lie, my whole life is a lie". I had never experienced this before in a yoga class or sitting with a 'teacher/ master/ guru'. I had cried and been captivated but I had never receieved such clarity of truth arising effortlessly from within. Before now it had come from outside—with Uma it is both—outside and within. There is a circuit that happens. Hidden aspects, insights and feelings from inside of me spontaneously appear to be met.
From the beginning of class I couldn't take my eyes of her. Despite the instruction to close my eyes and go inward I was completely maganatised by her - not just her physical radiance and beauty but something else. It was like everything I had been searching for my whole life was now standing before me in this form of a woman.
There was also this fascination with her perfection; her immaculate practice and teaching of asana; her devotion to the lineage of yoga; everything that encapsulates, I could feel her gratitude her immense service to that which has served her and her dedication to serve also.
And her voice—something in her voice was calling me, resonating, touching, meeting the deepest place in me that before now nothing had.
Often it is a challenge for me to stay focused in life—to conversations, tasks and situations. With Uma it is the opposite—it is like I can't focus on anything else but her. Even when my personality jumps in I notice it, I notice her in relation to that.
All I can guess is that admist all of my layers and stories there is a truthful part of me recognising the truth that Uma is.And there is more. Beyond the words there is this mystery. It's like everything is in her and everything is her and I have many moments each day where I know and sometimes wonder, "Is this Uma?"
- Libby, Australia
"I feel this love
She's so beautiful
Don't think she wants something or misuses me or take away my powers
I just feel the love
Different from any other teacher...
She doesn't have to prove anything
I can feel her when I talk about her
Just there for everyone where they can be met
Also feel I have embraced more of me by being with her. My primal side
More of myself
I want all that comes up to come up
I can feel to go nuts would be fine
I can feel her laughter
I tuned into Uma's energy
With a strong deep voice
Can feel her power in me when i was singing
I can source from her
I source from her
Use her energy
When i dance there is more of me
I can feel her voice in me"
- Sanna, Sweden
"I feel theres something wild not domesticated, a pure wild natural force. With Uma she contains everything, the biggest anger. Everything is part of it with her.
I feel in every moment she's present and aware and in contact. She cares, she cares.
....It's not about her plans. It's about truth.
She's fluid. I cannot feel her personality. I could feel her big love. Such a love.
Same time she asks you something, she is already there.
What a gift? I cannot believe this gift.
Having this master sit with you
Not giving any lecture
You can ask...anything
Only a few people around
He was Kashmiri Shaivite
In her its so alive
She embodies it
Her words are alive and fresh in every moment
Interaction with Uma is in every moment
I don't have to make a deduction from theory
I have the experience
This is the female way
I was longing for what Uma gives
"In class I liked the push to transparency, that aspect. Only way to not be eternal slave to your voices........
The openness, the directness, everything out in the open.
It also scares me.
Nobody likes it to expose themselves."
"I visit Ubud every 6 months on average so that I can attend classes with Umaa. After my first class with Umaa my concept of yoga changed forever. In her classes I have felt energetic surges moving through my body, I have felt divine bliss, I have found my voice, reached and released hate and fear. I have cried like a baby. I have shook uncontrollably. I have felt part of the whole. I have felt my chakras. I have felt my soul!! This is therapy at the deepest level with a teacher who will astound you with her knowledge, power, depth, strength and love."
- Juliet, Australia
"Uma's class is experiential. Unlike any class 'format' I have ever participated in, for me it is more of a journey. Freedom and a sense of acceptance of all that is permeates the space she holds for us, and allows me to become aware of my true nature and where resistance lies inside my body and mind. I leave feeling more activated, empowered, and peaceful. Uma, to me, embodies an essence of woman that is wise, healing, and raw. Her energy is medicinal. It feels to me there is no separation between her and the truth. The veil seems thin or maybe just her skin or not at all. "
"Uma has given me back the respect for the teacher again, she is so honest. I have such high standards when it comes to teachers.
She is more Westernized than maybe I am and yet she is more Indian than the Indians in India. She has such respect for the gurus. There is all of this energy but what are you going to do with it? It has to be for God and love.
There should be more like her, different but more people like Uma."
- Juergen, Germany
"The second day I spent with Umaa, I was asking about dying. I asked how to get through it—I've nearly died under the influence psychotropics several times, and each time I kicked and screamed and cried and clenched every muscle in my body and once sent myself to the hospital. How can I get through that? U said that you have to have Absolute Faith in the Absolute Love I have for you. And as she said that, I felt it—good God, and I do mean God, I felt it. I felt as though the entire Universe was being funneled through U, all of creation there looking into me, and there was a tube of Absolute Love reaching from U to me across the table. I could only take it in in awe, I teared up, I felt like a child, like an androgynous child being held in the embrace of Everything telling me that I was loved completely perfectly. It was psychedelic and totally real."
- Lopa, USA
Recipe for strong headaches:
Headache Medicines (Aulin, Algocalmin, Quarelin, etc etc) – FAILED
Massages – FAILED
Psychotherapy – FAILED
Buy a plane ticket to Bali. Meet Uma at the Kush Ayurvedic Center. Follow her advices. I follow these thing in the morning and strong cervical headaches are gone:
- Tongue scrub
- 1 cup of warm water early in the morning
- Head massage with ayurvedic oil or sesame seeds oil
- Have breakfast
- Don’t drink coffee anymore
- Andrea, 2014
“As myself, I am one with Consciousness. I remembered, forgot, remembered. My teachers—human, superhuman, and divine— reminded me. In remembering, I am falling in love with everything, and nothing is as it seemed.”
"Umaa, every time I close my eyes and take a deep breath and sink 2 levels back into my center, U are with me, the blackest of black pervading me and the boundaries of my skin feeling more permeable as the blackness behind everything reveals itself to me. U are with me always, but in those moments I feel floored, I feel wonder and awe at what U are, I feel laughing at the insanity and inanity of the boxes I put U in unknowingly before."
- Lopa, USA
"When I first met Umaa I knew I was hers to KILL.
I've said this before (to Kalidas).
I wasn't looking for someone to HELP me.
I wasn't looking for someone to show me the way.
I was looking for the way.
My recognition entered through the voice, and then through the eyes.
My recognition was FULL of discernment.
"I" knew which 'toxicity' I needed in order to pull out the poison that was causing me not to be.
Like the scorpio doesn't look for their preys, they wait until they are in front,
I knew I was in front of the ONLY scorpio that could kill me to live.
"She" was waiting for me because I was looking for her.
I didn't trust that poison, I HAD FAITH ON IT.
"You cannot fake Faith" -Umaa
If I had given my trust instead of my faith, I would have died in the first sting.
"Trust can be broken" -Umaa (so easily)
Faith is impenetrable.
- Banchitta, Mexico, in response to Stephan
“I do not have absolute faith on the infallibility of your judgment. I trust your discernment more than I have trusted anyone's (except my own), but I do not have absolute faith in your discernment. I do not have absolute faith in the integration of you and U (the ego and the Divine Consciousness that manifests in you). I do have absolute faith that you in your absolute love will overcome the limitations
in you that I see as possible.”
- Stephan, USA
"I've seen Umaa as an alien praying mantis with huge black oval eyes and tentacles and pointy teeth. I've seen Umaa as a giant with a bubbled head and hands so big they could flatten my whole body. I've seen Umaa having hundreds of different faces changing one after the other from man to woman, old to young, American Indian to African...I've seen Umaa's face continuously morph into undefinable forms of shadows and lights. I've seen Umaa as DEATH...with fangs, looking straight at me, holding my body down, piercing and burning parts of me from the inside with
- Mateo, France
“And my new point is that really, spiritual teachers are selling water by the river. They’re not holding anything that you don’t already have…I’m sure Umaa’s a really beautiful person, I’m not trying to discourage anything, but I just wanted to put it out there.”
"I was an agnostic, cosmopolitan-laden, anti-Nature, skeptic before meeting Umaa a year and a half ago. I held on tight to that which I could experience first-hand, or explain in some rational way, and called that Reality. I disregarded most anything else as fluffy, sci-fi, fantastical mumbo jumbo.
I was ignorant and arrogant. Dangerous mix.
I had blinders, ear muffs, full body suit layer, taste blockers and cotton up my nose, and I didn’t even know it. That was until I saw, heard, tasted, smelled and felt unexplainable states of being that shattered my hardened, historic reasonings and logic. As I purified and relaxed into the maybes and the in-betweens, I began perceiving reality in entirely new ways.
Umaa’s blown me open to the reality of just how magnificent and extraordinary our potential for living and experiencing can be. From the tiniest, quietest, most banal to the hugest, wildest and outrageous, and every stitch in between. Fireworks above ground all the way to lightning under water.
I have less and less definitives, indisputables and hard lines. I’m consistently realizing that what I thought was, isn’t. I am humbled and in awe of it all when I remember. It’s difficult to sustain. It’s so easy to get pulled back into thinking I know this or that as reality and truth. As you can see, any falsities get shredded pretty fast around here under the glaring and glorious light of Umaa.
That's the blessing, if you choose it."
- Eugenia, USA
"I have been experiencing massive unfounded, and previously answered doubts about Umaa's integrity, about the nature and necessity of the deathing process itself, about the authenticity of Umaa's lineage."
- Duncan, USA
"I'm terrified of you Umaa. Of what you could do to me...Better to stay away...a lion without courage, tin man with no heart and a scarecrow with no brain. Maybe that's why I look for a Dorothy to hold my hand, lead me down the YB road."
– Luca, England